Some of my best friends are mothers. I have to admit, I don’t envy them. I know they love their children, that they bring a lot of joy into their lives. I know if I had children I would feel that way too. But I also know that they had to give up a lot to become mothers, more than I would ever be happy to give up.
“Happy” is the wrong word, actually, because it seems that most of my friends are anything but happy about the price they’ve paid for motherhood. If anything, the ones who are co-parenting (at least with a man) are angrier about this than the single mams, because the fathers always promise more than they deliver. I listen as they share their frustration and resentment at how he still assumes the primary parenting and household duties to be hers; still feels entitled to aspects of his pre-parenthood life that she has long since resigned to the dustbin of her own past; expects praise and gratitude and a Dad of the Century award when he remembers to “help out”.
Added to this are the negative impacts that motherhood has had on her prospects for employment or promotion. The resentment she senses from female co-workers without children, who she suspects of seeing her reduced hours and frequent absences as a kind of special treatment. The barely concealed disdain from male co-workers, who she thinks see these things as evidence of lack of commitment to the job. Some of these male co-workers have children themselves, of course, but rarely have to prioritise their children over their work. That’s what their wives are for.
Then, too, there are the physical effects of childbirth [CN: obstetric trauma]. There’s a lot more of these than you probably know if you’ve never had children yourself, and as far as I can tell, none of them are good. Stretch marks, caesarean scars, vaginal laxity, hair loss, haemorrhagic periods, urinary incontinence – these are just the more common ones, the ones you can look forward to if you have a normal birth. If you’re one of the lucky ones. If you’re not, you could find yourself with a third or fourth degree perineal tear, pelvic organ prolapse, rectovaginal fistula, faecal incontinence, or Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction which, in particularly bad cases, leads to permanent reliance on mobility aids. Did you know spontaneous symphysiotomy is a thing? Neither did I, until I met a woman who had one.
If these injuries themselves are not lifelong (and many are), the psychological effects of them usually will be – and not just on the woman. They’ve destroyed marriages. They’ve also complicated mothers’ relationships with their children. One woman I know told me of her lifelong sense of guilt for not being able to bond with her baby properly – she was so injured by his birth that she couldn’t hold him. Other women speak of feeling some resentment towards the child themselves. They say this hesitantly, and often with enormous shame; aren’t they supposed to think “a healthy baby is all that matters”? Then they always feel the need to add the disclaimer that they love their child and don’t wish they hadn’t had it, they just wish things had gone differently. No doubt many of them mean this, but we’ll never know how many don’t. The mother who wishes she’d never had children is the one voice that is completely silent in the Repeal debate, just as she is everywhere else.
And then of course there are the women whom childbirth actually kills. Nowadays (though this wasn’t always the case) it’s usually medical negligence that’s to blame, but the outcome for the woman is the same. Ireland may be a relatively safe place to have a baby but that doesn’t change the fact that every year, a number of women die in our maternity hospitals – nor the fact that every woman who brings a pregnancy to term takes the risk of becoming one of those statistics.
This is what listening to women who are mothers has taught me: Motherhood is risky. Motherhood is difficult. Motherhood is sometimes life-threatening. It is always life-changing. Most of these changes are profound, though few are recognised as such, especially the bad ones.
When women have abortions for “social” reasons, when Yes campaigners call for legalisation without restriction as to reason, it is not, as the No campaign claims, because we take abortion “lightly”. It’s because we take motherhood seriously. We understand what it entails, and know that it should never be forced on someone who isn’t prepared to take it on. When No campaigners portray motherhood as no more than a minor inconvenience – or, worse yet, as a suitable penalty for “mis”behaviour – they belittle every woman who has ever sacrificed an important part of her life in order to have a child.
My own mother was already a mother when she had me. She knew it was no picnic. She held an MSc which wasn’t put to use again for many years after my siblings and I were born. She could have had a legal abortion in the place where we were living. Of course, I am grateful she didn’t. But I am also thankful for her that she had the choice. Done under duress, I can’t imagine how much harder her job would have been.
For all that Irish society purports to revere motherhood, the problem is we don’t really respect it. The myriad of ways that that needs to change are, for the most part, a subject for another blog post (I’ll just leave “proper remuneration” here for now). But we can take a big step very quickly by taking compulsory motherhood out of our Constitution – recognising it as too important a role to impose on the unready or unwilling.
Respect motherhood. Vote Repeal.
Wendy, your ethical position is a shoo-in, just like the repeal vote. But how far have you thought it through?
Allowing abortions for social reasons these days is also to allow them for a ‘wrongly’ gendered foetus, for Down’s Syndrome, for a possibly increased risk of cancer, obesity, homosexuality, depression or schizophrenia, for insufficient intellectual, athletic or aesthetic potential. And to allow them for those reasons is to further stigmatise the already-born for failing to fit within the ever-shrinking boundaries of ‘normal’.
The question of free abortion vs prohibition isn’t one between black and white, good and evil. It’s a question of the least worst option. I’d really like to see people on both sides of the debate acknowledge that. Then maybe they’d recognise they’re both wrestling with the huge problems of pregnancy, parenthood and bringing another consciousness into our ‘vale of tears’. Maybe they’d even start seeing each other as human beings.
Cabrogal — It’s not your body, so it’s not your choice. Period.
Early term fetuses are unconscious and unable to experience pain; Forced birth on girls and women will NEVER be part of the future in remotely progressive nations that value medical science and basic rights.
Girls and women should not have to provide a reason for choosing early term abortion, they are ALL valid and are ALL ethical because no one suffers from early term abortion. Life is prevented, but again that is not unethical; it is a responsible choice.
When was the last time you heard of someone having to provide a justification for getting a tubal ligation or vasectomy ? They dont need to because it is their business, no one else’s.
Unfortunately I have to correct you on the last point. Women seeking tubal ligation in Ireland are put through the third degree, and frequently refused.
Oh wow I don’t know how I didn’t realize that, how unfortunate; Ireland has some serious work to do.
Oh FFS, I’ve been campaigning for this for over 30 years and your suggestion that maybe I haven’t “thought it through” and need you to tell me about the possibility of sex-selection abortion or abortion for Down Syndrome (HALF THE FUCKING NO CAMPAIGN IS ABOUT THIS) is unbelievably patronising. As, I have to say, I’m finding a lot of your comments here.
Could you possibly just pause before posting and ask yourself, is my voice really needed here? Is that too much for lefty men?
Fine. You’ve solved that problem. Who says stridency can’t be constructive?
For my final patronising suggestion I’ll just remind you that you can delete comments you don’t like.
“Stridency.” A pejorative aimed ONLY at women. Your post was belittling and she called you out on it, which hurt your fee-fees. So you had to get sarcastic. Not constructive.
A great portrait of the orthodox thinkers. This mother Earth needs some more inspired people like you. Keep it up 👍